Humble Beginnings

It's 4 o'clock in the morning and I can't sleep; intense energy surging from the seas. Big energy, fully female, undulating with creativity, and oozing inspiration. Anyway, can't sleep! I had a million things on my mind when I woke up. Things I *needed* to share with *others*...somehow *desperately*, and a blog seemed the simplest solution.

So...here I am, the coffee and cigarettes slowly kicking in and as I slip softly back into the routine of *day to day*...the sacred, sleepful, secrets I wished to share, are fading away too quick. I can find them, *catch* them...*tag* them, but now I'm moving into my other-mind, into that numb-consciousness that used to maintain...and that energy, or rather *lack of*...is in no way conducive to sharing wisdom, but it's four and what else is there to do?!? If I don't post this...it'll just sit here empty. I have so much that *forgotten* stuff...started with the best-of-intentions, and no follow-through. Leads in twisted ideas about *why I'm bothering*??? To impress others, or as a means of fully utilizing myself?!?

I'm writing to change the atmosphere, manipulate the environment a tad...*scenting* the territory to something more comfortable, more familiar more *me*. I'm not writing to have other other folks agree with me. Whole different kind of validation I ain't fallin' for!

Anyway...

I started the Mystic Mysfits Forum...*wow*...July 2005! I started it because I was having problems at Astral Pulse; a forum founded by Robert Bruce who has now since moved on in an attempt to clean-house, and begun Astral Dynamics. I was kicked out of Astral Dynamics without warrant. Extremely poor public relations!
Where was I? Oh yeah, having *problems*...not really I guess...I can handle a lot of the Surface Dweller's stuff (a lot), and I can even handle them in blood-thirsty packs, which is how they operate when their belief-systems are approached...Yep, I can hang in there with the best queers, freaks, and mysfits...and I do...till I get locked out, or it moves into that vampiric frenzy where nothings being accomplished.
I've had a few people here and there say they've gotten some *bad* energy from my forum, but in comparison to most of the other *off-topic* forums out there...that's a compliment.

Anyway...

Mystic Mysfits was created as a retreat for those that get a hard time other places. It's a simple mission. There are no Moderators, no agenda, no criteria, etc. When folks don't feel they can have their say elsewhere...Mystic Mysfits is the place they can come to purge, sound off, regurgitate their messy, half-baked thoughts (at least), and leave it at that, or...comb through it if they feel. Again, it's not built as a means to impress....find acceptance perhaps, find some solace, and regroup, but I like to keep a *family* type atmosphere, where none of that *fitting in* in necessary!

Anyway...

The forum has been in limbo for a long while now. I've been working on a lot of other projects far and away from that scene, and it still hasn't fully come into it's *own* yet. Folks get attracted to the numbers, to the larger forums with far more opinions to wriggle through, and establish themselves in. All very addicted to the drama I'd say, but that's another post. I could easily post these blatherings there, and leave it at that, but it would be nice to see it fully functioning. Maybe this blog (eventually) will have a better turn out, and in turn...bring life back to the forum!
Would be nice.